xf0olishx's Diaryland Diary

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OKAY. so because i'm a baby & i refuse to put my shit out there on tumblr, i'm gna stick to diaryland. i was reminded today that writing does help and that is what im gna do. this is for my moments of great insights regarding breakups & relationships & life.. that i don't want other people to read.

wow. just lost the need to write. ANYWAY. bottom line.. thought of the day: finding the good in goodbyes. and the good in change. and remembering that your growth and learning is the most important thing right now. 22 is not an old age, but i can definitely say that in the past 7 months i've grown sooo incredibly much and learned how to be on my OWN and focus on MY life. i've learned what i like & dont like.. and that i cannot tolerate stupidity, mainly because i think there are people who bullshit wayy too much and need to learn how to be frank and keep it real!

and now i'm gna be straight up. if i was still in a relationship i would have never given ANY one in my nursing class a chance. i would not be so close to my friends as i am now. they have seriously been my STRENGTH to get through all of it and that is something i can't thank HIM for ever. but i CAN thank him for setting me free & helping me to live on my own and find out who i am/who i am becoming..

i'm learning a lot & maturing a lot. & as much as i want xyz for him or for us, sometimes the other party is not gna be as ready as you are. or even as strong as you are. and that's okay. it's important to keep doing your thing whether or not they want to join you.. because if they decide not to stick with you, you'll still have learned/gained way more than they have.

never play wifey without the ring. and never give it your all. because when it's over, you'll have nothing. but now that i'm gaining all my confidence and strength back, i'm vowing never to go back there. never to go back to that crazy place. KEEP MY MENTAL HEALTH up.
social support is the main thing there.

thank god you blew it, thank god i dodged a bullet. i'm so over you, good lookin' out.

and lastly, stay kind through it all. no one wants to be remembered as a bitch.. unless you had a reason to be.

2:35 P.M. - 03 September, 2011

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